Thursday, May 21, 2015

a wedding i did not dream of

almost all of the girls i know have a dream wedding. dress, venue, theme, guests, song they want while they walk down the aisle, first dance, etc... not me. not every thing. 

there was only one thing i want - a short engagement. it turned out that i got engage exactly two years  early before i got married. what i wanted did not happen but God is an amazingly amazing planner.

"everything works out together for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose"

this has become true for ranley & i.

my wedding turned out to be much better than i could have ever planned. 

pinterest is awesome. and so are friends & family. 

so here's some photos before the ceremony:


for the record i would like to say that ranley & i are not cut out to a life of modeling. i mean, i look at magazines and this super glossy pictures of people who look really put together - hair in place, clothes just right, perfect little smile or pout - and i say to myself, i want to look like that. i have an idea it must be a hard, i did not know it was really hard. 

but we had so much fun & bloopers shooting this photos. i think james & his team made a very good coach and they were very patient. ranley & i are both not all that comfortable having our photos taken while there are audience (some of our guests arrived early) and we don't know how to pose! 
for a couple of inept and amateur poser we did pretty good, eh? 
these photos are amazing to me because in them we did not have our eye close, we're not picking our nose, etc 

ceremony/reception venue: garden & pool area, rancho cancio
video: Onins
hmua: bien ybanez hair & make-up
coordination & planning: ivy faith miranda 
styling: ivy faith mirand & jen tejas
flowers: pearl flowers
caterer: chai catering
music: mcof band
singer: kim mendiola
lights: alvin pepito
photography: air balloon project & che somber

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

are you what you're thinking?

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things. 
Philippians 4:8

tonight's devotional did not make me feel good - at all. i want a verse that speaks to me about having faith, or that God would provide and that God just wants me to wait etc. 

but then i read this verses tonight and it hits me. because i could use this. this is what i need. i have to be positive in my thoughts. i have to screen my thoughts no matter how tempting to do otherwise. i heard and read somewhere that "you are what you think". and if that is the case i don't want to be what i am thinking a lot of times.

those does not glorify God. i want to be positive, to be an encourage r, to be confident. not because i can do it but because i have God by my side. 

A reminder to myself today:

* i don't need new things to make me happy. sure i get excited when i get new stuff. but right at this moment in my life i want more to be a blessing. to be a change. to help effect change. i might be talking-non-sense to others because i admit it who, would not be happy with a new shoes? or a classic looking bag? a shiny new gadget? but i have to check myself. stuff is not what is making me it is a tool to reach my goal - to be a catalyst of change not a material hoarder. if i feel empty or lacking i don't want to go around rushing to "shop" because "to every girls problem, shopping is the cure".

this is not a recent discovery i have felt this way even before. whenever i get lots of material blessings, or financial abundance i feel a little displaced. i start thinking that i feel guilty which is not healthy at all because I am 100 percent sure that every good and perfect gifts comes from above, i feel like maybe there is more to what i recieved than meets the eye when i get a blessing financial, material or otherwise.

i know i have a long way in learning and growing in many areas in my life. but i really do want that i will be able to communicate my purpose. i am here because God wants me to be here. I am doing what God wants me to do. he wants me to do it competently. humbly. passionately. and that if i do it that way i will be able to reflect his glory. 


journal Feb 21, 2014

Saturday, March 28, 2015


it is refreshing to think of happily-ever-after...sometimes. just thinking of this thought while watching the 2015 version of Cinderella!
to be whisked into the magical and think that princesses & fairies & crystal shoes exists! ahhhh
oh just day dreaming - well, more like evening dreaming while watching a movie.

Friday, January 2, 2015

balicasag reef, panglao island

the day started out great.. the sun is up and shining, the breeze blowing gently. everything is calm and looks so serene.
we head out to the beach to meet the boat that would take us to balicasag reef. this is my first time to be there. it was also pipa's first time to go. all is well while we are going there but we have noticed that the waves are becoming just a little bit rougher than before we set out.
and to maria's great disappointment, we anchored (tied up with the rest of the boats that are already there, about hundreds of them) near the reef instead of the supposed plan of docking on the island itself. sea sickness from being lulled by waves is becoming apparent for one of our companions.
we put on our snorkeling gear and for the first time i am able to use swimming fins. for the record this will be my third time snorkeling. the first two times was in mactan reef and we don't have any snorkeling gear at all!
i was excited though one of person that went with us to dive told us that we would struggle a bit because the waves are rough. carsten showed me how to use my stuff and off we went. just the two of us because apprently maria has succumb to the waves and is being nursed by roy on the side of the boat. 
horror 1: no matter how hard i tried i do not know how to move my legs and feet with swimming fins on! carsten is being patient but it was a slow move to the area where we were to do the snorkeling.
horror 2: while struggling to float (i was wearing a life jacket) and battle the waves i was also being stung by tiny flower like things and instead of paddling my arms i keep scratching my legs and arms! i found out later that those things are a species of jelly fish we locally called salabay.
horror 3: on the way home we met an unexpected thunderstorm!

the boat was newly fixed and painted but it does not have appropriate roof. it has a small room that can provide that can provide shelter from the biting wind and from getting wet because of the sudden downpour but it feels like being inside a bottle and shaken thoroughly.
i was holding pipa down there because leslie feels dizzy when suddenly she started throwing up on me; on my shoulders, chest & on herself. but she is a brave little girl, she did not cry at all she just made a little whimper because of the discomfort that she felt but no tears. we put her back up and her mom hugged her and covered her with towel while her dad was holding a life jacket on leslie's back and head to prevent wind and rain from soaking them both and pipa slept peacefully until we came back to panglao.

it was an experienced for all of us. maria keep repeating to herself, "never again" and les promise to listen to her guts but to me it was something else. one of the moments, albeit and uncomfortable one but nevertheless something i would not change.

a memorable second day of the year for us! 

here are some photos of the trip before the windy downpour.

the day showed great promise. no waves!

les & pipa looking at amorita resort

the huge boat that would take us to balicasag

amorita resort cliff

the tanks for the divers that are also with us

lone fisherman 

anchored well :-)

pipa love

little sailor and her dad

another boat man

normal, sane moments!

i envy these lashes, really


some of the hundreds that are all vying for some colorful fishy actions



me; my sisters!

maria, geared up 

i am not sure why i tried to pose in this area where i was in danger of having my foot smashed by our anchor

pipa playing with her dad

so pretty!